Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Inside the Chambers (a poem)

This speaks of the struggle in keeping our hearts before Him in a time where outward pleasures surround us. It speaks of His longing to have our inward hearts and not just our outward sacrifices.



Come into the chambers of my heart
Where love awaits and longings are.

Here inside this secret place
Where you alone can see and taste.

You call me to stillness and peaceful streams
Trusting, abiding, waiting in peace.

Deep within I constantly fight
For sweet pleasures to delightfully arise.

As I come to open this chamber door,
My hope in time is that it will be Yours.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

A Longing for Unhindered Devotion

I so long for my heart to be more of the Lord's. I so easily let doubt crowd in on my heart which stops so many things the Lord wants to do in me. It is very frustrating! I suppose hunger is a gift of God as well as dissatisfaction. A heart which is content will never go deeper in the things of God. It is only the heart that is longs for more that will enter into the depths of His heart. So, I am not complaining when I say this...I'm just saying that today I wish I could enter into the relationship with God that we will have in heaven. One that is not hindered so easily by distractions and by our own weaknesses. Yet I find myself so weak, yet hungering for my heart to be fully His.

It is our hope and joy to know that we will love God fully with no hinderance the day we enter into eternity. That will be a glorious day. Until that day I guess all we can do is press in and learn that our identity is not in our weakness or in our past. Our identity is in the fact that God is madly in love with us because He sees us in an eternal perspective - He sees us the way we will be in heaven - hearts fully given to Him. The love that is in His heart will fully be in us -- we will have the ability and power to love Jesus in loves fullness on that day. That is the reward Jesus saw when He said yes to giving His life for us. He saw a "Bride" (or the church..or a "partner") who would love Him and in whom He would love. This "Bride" is the church, which is made up of weak hearts that have said yes to receiving His love. The small "yes" in our hearts for the Lord weighs so much more than the sin that we so easily see as our identity. It is a problem with identity that many of us have. Our identity in His eyes is that we are a lover of God who struggles with sin, not a sinner who struggles to love God. We are lovers of God no matter what our struggles or weaknesses are. That is who we are. Until that reality is established in our hearts and minds, we will live in condemnation, doubt, and fear because our main focus is on our weaknesses and not on how God feels about us in the midst of our weaknesses. May we lift our eyes from such things and begin to set our hearts upon His face...to learn from His heart and sit at His feet. We are His joy, His inheritance, and His reward NOW -- not just when we enter into eternity. He enjoys us NOW! With our weak hearts and all! His heart is RAVISHED by us! Oh that our hearts would begin to grasp this reality!